*(re)Inventing Jena*

Working on some charcoal portraits for Xmas, makin that money!

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Everytime a Cat Cleans Itself, It’s Worshipping the Dark Lord by Jerrod Landon Porter

Last night was supposed to be fun. We were supposed to go to Sprouts, buy the ingrediants for this lovely recipe, and then spend the night in the kitchen playfully creating a culinary masterpiece.

In reality, Sprouts had like NONE of the things I needed/overpriced the things they did have- (no nutritional yeast? you’re charging $4 for Tamari?) So it turned into Pad Thai. I was angry, needed a cigarette, and in the kind of mood that refuses to have fun once my plans are squashed.

So yeah, greasy pad thai. So not the healthy meal I envisioned… I had a small helping so hopefully I didn’t blow my calorie limit way out of the water, but I think I’ll be paying for it by NOT weighing in at 124.0 tomorrow. That’s all I really want… I mean COME ON. Give me the joy of 124. dang it.

UGH! ALSO—- Tonight is my company’s holiday party which means being bombared by calories, cigarettes, and forced conversation. yay. As you can see, I still haven’t shaken this mood. BOO.

:/

Who knew… Skinny peppermint mocha for ~100 cals! I have been VERY hungry today. Tonight will be hard to stay within goal; it’s kind of strange how having to be so restrictive has finally made me excited to be able to start running again! I would SO love to eat and have the option to burn off 300 or so extra calories tonight. Soon. Soon….

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Gemma Correll

 Totally Me.

Tonight’s dinner - Gardein “beef” tips stir fried in 1 tsp peanut oil with 1 cup mixed Asian vegetables, 2 tbspn soy sauce, a dash of tabasco, and a dash of Padang peanut sauce.

Soooo good! I didn’t measure exactly (I’m a good guesser, and it takes the pleasure out of it for me…) so I can only guess at calories. I prefer to overshoot so I will say 250 cals.

I weighed in at 125 (woo!) this AM, and have done great with cals yesterday & today. I’m at only 650 right now, so I’m looking forward to a healthyish treat like hummus, popcorn, or peanut butter!

Last night’s dinner - Tasty Bite Punjab Eggplant in lettuce wraps. Yummmmmmm and only about 250 calories for an entire box!! (made 6 wraps).

Healthy lunch at work! Yes, still alive and kicking over here!

• HealthyChoice Teriyaki - 250 cals
• Annie Chun’s wasabi seaweed - 60 cals
• Orange - 70 cals
• White tea pomegranate - 0 cals
• Beeakfast oatmeal - 130 cals
• Total - 510 

That leaves 300 to 600 for the rest of the day. Quick update on life since SO MUCH has happened since I last posted…

Tough Mudder came and went, I did not run. I wimped out when they changed the course a few days out. Plus I never truly quit smoking, and am still struggling with that. I do not feel like a warrior, I feel like a lump. So at Tough Mudder … the boy proposed as I mentioned previously! Super excited. Super motivated to not wear a size 10 wedding dress.

Then, 2 weeks ago, I got a nose job! Something I’ve wanted forever, please spare me your judgements. I am paying for it myself, and I truly do feel like it is an investment in my long term happiness. Plus, save a few, the majority of people in the “fitblr” community have a bit of experience with vanity since it a common initial motivator to getting healthy. :) I will admit I am straight up vain at this point in my life, and I am happy with my decision. One issue with the surgery though, is that I cannot work out for a few more weeks. They don’t want my blood pumping too much, so I am working exclusively on calorie restriction right now. I am aiming for about 1000 cals a day to kick start attempt #582957810975 to lose these stupid 20-30 lbs. I would reeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaally like some X-mas pictures this year where I don’t feel rollly and uncomfortable tugging at my clinging sweater and maneuvering my face in every shot to hide a double chin. I’m off to a good start with Thanksgiving, weighing in at a typical 125.8 this morning. I have approximately 4 weeks until X-mas which if I do well means I could get to 120. I haven’t been able to do it yet, but let’s give it a go again. So, that’s a pretty good summary of what has happened in the last 2 months, and I will attempt to check in a little more regularly. Back to work!

So… This is my first post since I got engaged! Back to healthy salad dinner, and an all new weigh loss motivator- wedding dress! To be continued…

Oh- weight is still 125, and I really have slacked in the running department…

How relevant!

(Source: thespartanwarrior)